Question:
I have a weird sleeping disorder:
in the middle of the night, while I am sleeping, I might sit up, open my
eyes and start to talk. Sometimes I say something clear and something that
makes sense, but usually it's just gibberish. I do this regularly. Does this
mean that my sleep paralysis is not "strong" enough?
I'm not actually worried with the talking, just the sleep paralysis; I can
pretty easily stay in a relaxed state, but sleep paralysis just won't come.
Sometimes I sense the normal things: floating up or down, sliding a bit or
just "displacing" a bit, but it hardly goes any further.
Is there something wrong with my brain?-)
Answer:
Sleep talking/walking are indicative of Non-REM sleep...not REM, so
paralysis is not to be expected.
Is it really bothering you, or are you just interested in what's
happening?
Maybe someone knows about a sleep clinic in Finland that you could go
to and explore this further.
I don't understand why you would want to experience sleep paralysis.
From my experience, there have been a few times, where i have been awakened,
and completely unable to move, unable to open my eyes, unable to speak...and
I try to moan out something, or to scream and nothing but a small hoarse
whisper comes out. Then after about what seems like a few minutes I jump out of
it.
The first time i experienced this, I literally felt like the life was being
sucked out of me by some giant cosmic vaccum cleaner, and I swear it was as if
I was hovering somewhere near my body during the experinece. Like I was
watching myself.
That was about 6 years ago. I had not had one since, until last week..had about
3 in a row before i fell into deep sleep, and when i would awaken.
I am not sure what sLeep Paralysis is, but I am sure that it is the right word
for what I had experienced.
Is there something .... interesting about this that I am missing? I would
gladly let you have mine..LOL.
I can feature why you'd react that way...I'll gladly take
yours
Since I gave up psychedelics years ago, it's as close as I can come to
LSD while still being legal :)
That is, you can learn to let the fear slide away while taking
advantage of a "dream" while awake and lucid. Hallucinations are
common in this state and you can mentally "play" little control games
with them, once you learn how. It's just kinda cool, once you realize
there's nothing to fear and that you can manipulate the couple of
minutes you have before "normalcy" comes back. It's a kick.
I felt the same way about sleep paralysis too. The fear aspect was very
intense ( and there was a personal element to a series of SP I had which I
have never tried to explain. Far too deep and psychological and
uncomfortable to think about) and when it first started occuring, I was
dreading falling asleep knowing that I may suffer the same fate again. But
once I read up on it I felt slightly more confident. It still took time but
eventually I confronted the fear head on.
I still have SP, but usually it just evolves into a awakening dream - which
I always find far more vivid and 'real' than a bog standard lucid dream.
But now and again I'm still caught off guard.
Even so, today ( its around 4:30am here in London ) I'll be finshing work at
8am and I'll probably go to bed around 1pm till 6pm. In that time I'm more
than likely to have a awakening dream or a SP. I actually look forward to
both -
am i sick ;) - I suppose I just love the buzz from existing in another
realm ( if you get what I mean ) - other than the reality we live in.
As a sidenote: On one afternoon nap, I woke up and found myself wondering if
I was still asleep. One method I have found useful ( as I have a habit of
just laying there like a dead animal ) is moving my mouth around. If I'm
dreaming then the sensation is somewhat indescribable. Its almost like my
mouth, jaw in fact, is made of jello. Theres a crunchy weird feeling as I
move my lips about. In one awakeing dream I walked over to a mirror - and
found that my whole face was behaving like it was made out of rubber. Pretty
cool stuff.
