Question:
Please someone reassure me that I do not have this disease. In researching
total insomnias it's about the only thing I've found a lot on. Now it's 9:45
and I am very unbelievably paranoid. Jesus, I have the insomnia and twitching
down pat. I know I am neurotic, but it's because of the extremity of my
situation! I am a blood worker too!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Too much halcion last night made me anxious. And I'm sure I've probably got
borderline dementia because I think my IQ has dropped fifty points in six
months. I forget words. It's hard to explain how dumb and foggy and lost I
feel. I thought it was a combo sleep deprivation and sleeping pills. Maybe
it's FFI. I am going to call my doctor tomorrow and ask for a spinal tap...
Help, I am freaking out? Does anyone else freak out like this about their
problem? I feel like a mutant, like a diagnostic nightmare freak! This is
hell. Could I have this horrible degenerative disease? I had cancer as a kid
that went undiagnosed a long time, can you tell how much therapy I needed for
this? LOL? Help me, I am being totally sincere here, letting my guard down!
Answer:
Sorry, but you have a good dose of panic disorder Sakina. If not panic, then a
virulent anxiety disorder. It may stem from the sleep disorder, and probably
does. I would recommend a tricyclic class of medication, like imipramine.
Have you even BEEN sleep studied?
Just know that symptoms can subside, but you might have a rough year.
Don't worry too much about ol' me. Today I have recovered from my FFI and now
only have Wilson's Disease. Honestly, my trouble is just that I am
undiagnosed, afraid, and having some pretty icky symptoms, insomnia being one
of them. I swear, I am not a hypochondriac, and most of the time my anxiety is
1.) normal given my situation 2.) more intellectual than physical or emotional
or 3.) secondary to my halcion use. I am just seeking answers, and finding
disturbing possibilities in the process. Doctors don't seem to give you the
time of day unless you're bleeding from the eyes. The worse it gets, the more
I push. And since I'd feel like I was kookoo for Cocoapuffs if I voiced my
fears to my loved ones, I turn to my Internet family for reassurance.
Just got back from Stanford today. They agreed with me, that it's probably
neurological, not psychiatric. Too severe without overt emotional stuff, also
too many muscular symptoms. Been up since yesterday morning, 6 am. It's now 2
pm. Tired. Drove too far. Meds failed me last night. Scary. They said I need
to press my neurologist for diagnosis, and get treatment. I went by his
office, said call tomorrow. Stanford said hundreds of neurodegenerative
conditions can result in insomnia. Any info on this appreciated. Want badly to
know what's my problem. As usual they said they couldn't help, just take
ambien and halcion, pursue neurological testing. Tremor's been severe.
